Are you really gone?

Its been a while since we said goodbye
But I find it hard to make up my mind

Won't you ever come back
Are you really gone?
How do I ever forget
How you felt like home

You're on my mind every day and night
I know it's crazy, to think you're mine

My heart won't believe
That you're really gone
But are you really gone?
Aren't you mine no more?

I cry myself to sleep
And wake up with tears
Is this good bye for the last time
Is your love just a sweet lie

Sing!

Sing for the people

Sing for the love

Sing for the freedom 

Oh I've been working, slaving, sweating

Making fat cats bags of money

Wading through that fat rat race

Like a stupid ass donkey chasing that carrot 

You have this life, you're human, you're blessed

So go and take that chance and be your best

Be a little crazy, be a little loud, 

Be a little extra cause you won't get it twice! 

Oh Stop! Take a deep breath!

Look around you! Take a little rest!

Forget what they say, they don't really mind

Never forget you're one hell of a kind 

Take that bottle, have a sip

Hug your sister hug your brother 

Tell them you love them, what they mean to you

Cause being kind is very very cool

Denying the truth

Its been a while since we said goodbye
But I find it hard to make up my mind

Won't you ever come back
Are you really gone?
How do I ever forget
How you felt like home

You're on my mind every day and night
I know it's crazy, to think you're mine

My heart won't believe
That you're really gone
But are you really gone?
Aren't you mine any more?

I cry myself to sleep
And wake up with tears
Is this good bye for the last time
Is forever just a sweet lie

My poor heart

My poor heart,
Hang in there my darling
I know you're hurt
I know you're crushed
I know you're scarred
But hear me out
I promise you
it'll be alright

My poor heart,
Don't let him in my darling
Don't let him see
Don't let him know
How much you care

Now hear me out

I promise you
It'll be alright

You did your best, you gave it all,
To a man who's a child
He liked his toy but he played it cruel
My darling, don't you cry

My poor heart,
You gave him all you've got
He watched you weep
Sabbed your wound
And left you dead
So hear me out
I promise you
It'll be alright

My poor heart,
Wish I can hug you my darling
I know your worth
Get out of that dirt
Bring back that smile
So my love, hear me out
I promise you
You'll be alright

Just let me be

It's all misty, it's all unclear
Can't tell if it's ever been this bad
There could be steep hells near
I sense danger. it makes me mad

Tired, exhausted, and frustrated with misery
Wishing this slow journey to end soon
Scared of judgements and would look a mockery
Should I let this cause me my doom?

How the hell did I become this voiceless
Can my frustration not at all be seen?
I feel like a corpse, so lifeless
Wish I could scream, "Just let me be"

I need not speak, it is that obvious
Or do they like pretending nothing's wrong?
Say farewell to the life you think is glorious
Cause this is not going to last for long!

Ru

It was Us

So we said goodbye many a times
But nothing felt like a real goodbye
Each time we gazed into each other's eyes
They tricked me into believing it wasn't goodbye

Was it the moon, was it the night
Was it the stars, was it the sky
Oh no it was us, just you and I

Your hair on my face when you lean into kiss me
Your lips whispering words all night in my ear
Under the moon and the stars and sparkly flowers in the sky
On the rocks by the sea in the warm summer breeze

Was it the moon, was it the night
Was it the stars, was it the sky
Oh no it was us, just you and I

You walk in to my room with that smile on your face
Your eyes, they speak, something deep with mine
Your hands in mine soft and warm
Soothing my heart and cleansing my soul

Was it the moon, was it the night

Was it the stars, was it the sky

Oh no it was us, just you and I

Cry in the desert

Waking up to just another day
Feeling dull and depressed
The sun is bright yet all you see is darkness
A scheduled day that didn't want any changes

Not a single soul who knows you
To talk to, to let it all out with
You scream for help in silence
Knowing there's no one to help

Eyes covered with tears and pain
Aching heart longing to break free
They will pretend not to see your pain
And go on with their own business

Though maybe close, always far away
Filled with words yet empty inside
Not a day spent like living the dream.
Wondering how this all happened instead!

Regretting for the risks that weren't taken
Lost in thoughts with 'what ifs'
Best is to keep quite and take it all in
Simply casue you don't know what else to do

!

Take me back to the dark quiet
Street Under the tall pine tree
Snow falling I remember
It's the cold cold December

The days were gloomy
I wonder if we were blind
To see it was a beginning
A beginning of a dream so wild

The gaze of our eyes
Said the same words
It wasn't us who talked
But our minds and souls

The cold gloomy December
With clouds so grey
Had a bright silver lining
With a price to pay

Well, how you’ve been?

How’s everything o'er there

How is your mama? Is she doing fine?

Well I’m ok, I’ve better than ever

Now I have two dogs.

The cats aren’t any better.

Give me a minute you gotta be kidding me

What am I saying my god this is killing me

Promise you won’t ever let go

My hand you’ll hold it forever, you know

I’ll find a good job; we’ll build a sweet home,

Let’s go to sleep on Fridays at four..

Love was so easy, when we were kids,

But look what happened to us, we grew up.

How’s weather o’er there?

Do you work somewhere?

How is your cousin I met at the fair?

We bought a new house

The kids need more space

Oh and by the way my wife wants to say "Hey"

Doesn't Bother Me Anymore

That look in your eyes tells me not to ask
Where you’ve been all night in the dark
This is just a place you come and go
But that really doesn’t bother me any more

Don’t wonder if I stayed up all night
Wondering who you must be holding tight
With your arms which once held me so close
But that really doesn’t bother me any more

Last at night I wake up sometimes
To see you’re not there by my side      
I hear you sneak in early dawn
But that really doesn’t bother me any more

Why? 

Why do I still wait for you

Knowing that you've gone?

Why do I still think of you

When he loves me more?

Why do I still cry like this 

When I know I should Smile?

Why do I fell lost and sick?

Let me think just why.

Why do I think you're the one

When "I'm not the one" you said.

Then you said "Listen we're done"

Making my eyes all red.

Why do I still recall the past

When all you did was a fake?

Why do I write poems so fast

About you who cause heartaches?

Why do I still look for you

When next to me I have him?

Why do I miss you? I DO!

When he gives me everything?

Name you forget to erase

It’s been so long since you've been gone

I’m still waiting by the door

Watching how the time goes by

Counting each and every second and by

The time you make up your mind

Should I be prepared for crime?

To kill my innocence inside

Fool myself to make a sacrifice

You shower me with your sweet warm words

Watch me burn and do you like how I’m hurt?

Never too late to remember my name

Remember that name you forget to erase 

I know its a game that I willingly played 

Just as you wanted, the rules you changed

Called you left you messages

Cz I want you to fix the damages

That you made deep in my heart

With your tender touch, it hit me hard

You played your song, only spent a dime

I cry to sleep a million times

Stabbed my heart now you watch me die

With the knife I made out of my pride 

to YOU, who love my man

We built our lives together

Raised children, gave his name

Made a promise to be together

Till death do us apart

Sweetie, let me tell you this

We grow old together

Do everything a normal couple does

Sleep together, wake up together

Walk on the road holding hands

But does he ever do this with you?

Would he ever?

And he proudly calls me his wife

What does he call you girl?

his mistake?

his lie?

his guilt?

His mistress?
 

I know you would wait for him

For days to hear his voice

For months to see his face

Forever to take my place…

Why would you

wait for him when he never waits for you

hope when there seems to be no hope left

cry yourself to sleep when you know he sleeps beside me

He finds you easy

Because you never complain

You never demand

He finds you exciting

Because I am older

And you my child, younger

He finds you attractive

Because you try hard

to please him more

I’m his mama’s meal

not exciting, nothing to long for

You’re his exotic meal

Tempting, something to crave for

But that crave doesn’t stay long

Not after he discovers another

But he’d always come for mama’s meal

As it would always remain the same

And he’s too used to that homely taste…

And above all,

We call ourselves a family

What do you call yourself?

(This poem is inspired by the beautiful song 'The other woman' by Nina Simone) 

Well I changed the name of my blog. All this time I had nothing on mind to give it a name. But now I do. and here I go. 'Lost in Dreams'

I watched a movie and gave the idea to write this poem. I changed the plot slightly when I reached the middle of the poem. anyways, this is the outcome. enjoy and comment!

It’s your love blended with music

Very sensual flowing over me

May I know you by the soul within your voice?

I ask myself doubting what it would be

I turn my back but it’s pointless

Your voice caresses me and it’s priceless

Captivating my heart with no pity

as your music mingles with my thoughts

You try so hard to guard it

But your heart fails, beating loud on stage

Surrendering to your heart

Longing to sin, torturing your head.

The tune you play fondles me

With your fingers strumming your heart

Inner guilt sings “Once tasted,

the forbidden fruit is sweet”

Tease me with the power of your voice

Steal my heart away from me

And listen to its bitter sweet truth

“I’m yours in music, if never in life”

Story with no name

Slowly descends the cold evening

Smoothly played the tunes of love

Laughter shows they’re celebrating

The day they walked down the isle

She is waiting for the right time

In a black sparkling dress

Such a contrast against her tender skin

Made her look so blessed

They eat they drink they dance

But her hunger is to flee

For he is craving for the chance  

In the hotel room by the sea

Took a risk, stepped out

Tip toeing to feel her long awaited passion

Fast heartbeat, trembling lips

As she sees him waiting by the door

No words spoken, nothing’s on minds

She hugs him tight, as if it’s the end of time

Who’d have thought this would be divine

The moment they longed for a while

No distance left between for air

Bodies so close, souls reach the other

Behind her ear he tucks her hair

They look into the eyes of one another

Ecstasy lips but soft and tender

Meet his, craving that kiss he spoke of  

This is heaven they think, No wonder

With passionate love they’ve been dreaming of

Music from a place far away

Two lovers rocking back and forth

Having the best slow dance of their lives

Singing along the song of hope

His hands running along her spine

Her hands around his neck

Wishing everything will be alright

Knowing it’s going to end up such a wreck

A kiss, I love you, said it all

What lingers in their hearts

That touch, that kiss, that look they share

Tell this is going to be the start

A start of a story

They cannot give a name

Forcing to forget that

With love comes pain

A song can do wonders

Happy song

You do wonders

You make me smile and make me cry

The words you carry

Make me go yonder

Through the time when love made me fly

It’s funny how it’s been too long

And yet I long for this love love

You dear song, are a trouble maker
for dragging me to the past I wish I could get back to

and I know he is dancing with another 
well, maybe to the same old song

Happy song,

You do me wrong

This tender heart can easily be torn

Don’t take me back

to last December

where our love for you was born

Duke and Me :)

You fake
pretend that you're OK
They try
to smile I don't know why
You climb so high
but the Gravity is still there
You find content
but will that last till the end

Oh... your colors fade away
Oh... your colors fade away

You're half way gone
turn back no more
you can't undone whats dead and gone
The waves are strong
You can't hold on
you're going down deep water

Oh... your colors fade away
Oh... Your colors fade away

Paradox

I want to remember 

But I forget...

I want to forget,

But I remember! 

Ruuuuuu !!! Finally I wrote a song for you ; )

She is a girl wants the pure independence
She got a crowd with a good attention
Always carries a surprise with her
Even her friends turn up side down


She is the gunner, yeah she is the stunner
She is the battle,that is hard to settle
But she is cool, no one can fool


She has the chance to turn the pages
She has the voice to breake the blue ages
Comparisons will not amuse her
But love will turn her eyes blur 

And hey,She is the gunner, yeah she is the stunner
She is the battle,that is hard to settle
But she is cool, no one can fool

She is the gunner, yeah she is the stunner
She is the battle,that is hard to settle
But she is cool, no one can fool..


She is a girl with her own inventions
She is a girl looks for complete perfection
And she knows what to choose
When the time comes she will RULE !


Written by Sewwandi Karunaratne
(One of my forever best friends)

I pray we'll never part!

Time has come for you to leave
pack your bags and get ready
I’ll be fine, don’t look at me
cz I'm trying to hide my tears

Save all the love I’ve gifted you
Recall the memories when you want to
Think of the time we spent together
Whenever you need me there!

Look into your heart 
you’ll see I’m right next to you
Listen to ur heart which echoes my words
The words you loved to hear

A longing for your tender kiss,
Would hurt my aching soul
And deep within my heart,
I pray we'll never part!

Gone, yet mine!

I must be there for you

And I will be.

I’ll be there to give you my heart

Cause no one else will.

It’s you who said "our souls are connected"

beyond what we can touch and see.

And yes I still believe in it

Cause I feel your presence.

I do!

every single second!

No matter where you are.

I can’t sleep,

my heart is shattered.

A step from the past is a tough fight.

Your voice is the only voice

That would always make me feel better.

and Yes you did it so right.

Ill try to forget, but ill never regret

All my memories that will never fade,

I will always have your picture in my head.

Those eyes

That I would ever want to stare into

And to be LOST in.